Tombo Ati iku limo perkoroneKaping pisan moco Quran lan maknaneKaping pindo sholat wengi lakononoKaping telu wong kang sholeh kumpulonoKaping papat kudu weteng ingkang luweKaping limo dzikir wengi ingkang suweSalah sawijine sopo iso ngelakoniMugi-mugi Gusti ALLOH nyembadani
Terjemahan untuk mereka yang tidak faham bahasa Jawa:
Ubat Hati ada lima perkaranyaYang pertama baca Qur'an dan maknanyaYang kedua solat malam dirikanlahYang ketiga berkumpullah (bergaul) dengan orang solehYang keempat perbanyaklah berpuasaYang kelima zikir malam perbanyaklahSalah satunya siapa boleh melakukannyaMoga-moga Allah yang Maha Besar memenuhi hajatnya
English transliteration for those who are clueless in understanding Bahasa Melayu and Javanese:
Elixir of heart
Elixir of heart, there are five of itThe First, read Quran and understand its meaningThe Second, prayer at night, do itThe Third, make your companion a pious personThe Fourth, keep your stomach hungry (i.e fasting regularly)The Fifth, remember your Lord at night constantly (zikr)One of it, anyone who can do itMay Allah almighty fulfill his wish
This song really brought me back close on track (at least I did not wander far from where I should be). Honestly, I'm currently in emotion turmoil very badly. This is the most severe I ever had. The cause? Numerous. It has been accumulating for sometime and finally I was defeated by my own emotion. The strength that I had built myself before shattered like a broken glass. I am not being sentimental here, but it is really reflect my current state. Even so, I never blame Allah for it. There must be something behind all this (read: hikmah). But, rebuilding my faith is not an easy process. Along the way (read: now), my routine is severely affected, my focus had flew away, my concentration has gone so with my studies. I feel down, full of hatred, disappointed and still hoping that there will be someone to bring me out from this mess. I still pray and put my hope unto HIM. Everything I did is under the influence of hatred and it is really disturbing and wears me down. I am damn tired with all of this. I will be coming back home this week with hatred and revenge. Please, I never ask this, hope there will be help from HIM.
p/s: Syukur, status internship dgn Synergistic Generation Sdn. Bhd. dah confirm. On the other hand, DSP wat hal. Org2 tu wat hal gak. Arrrgghhh~