Thursday 13 August 2009

Remapping My Thinking System

Imagining myself as a car, after several years of driving I've became 'less efficient'. Taking a car as an analogy, this is made obvious from deteriorating fuel consumption, higher engine revs when idling, increased exhaust emission, loud engine sound and even more frequent warning indicators blinking from the display panel on the dashboard. Therefore, an ECU remap will do the trick. All the settings and parameters will eventually fall off the prescribe limits due to many factors contributed by the environment (engine condition, aging parts, poor maintenance and etc). By resetting all these to the original settings, the efficiency can be achieved again.

I would like to do that sort of things to myself, increasing my 'efficiency' in driving my life. Redefining myself is the best word of it. I am reminding myself to be more sincere in everything I do. Everything must be done for a good cause and seeking for revenge using kindness and empathy to mask the real intention is strictly forbidden (this reminds me of Stewie from Family Guy who is always being ingenious and cunning when paying revenge to his enemies). Anger and hatred can easily meddle with the principle of my life. I hope I am strong enough not to be affected by that. I have to constantly brainwash myself to appreciate the person who is appreciate me. I have to be strong in defending my belief and stick to it. I must not hate other people although he/she had done something terrible to me BUT always put limits to prevent from falling into the same trap again. I have to stop thinking much about others till I neglect myself. Just be myself, not seeking acknowledgement from others by trying to live up to their requirement. If they don't like me to be myself, I would tell them to F off since there are persons who understand me and can sync with my flow of thinking. I can always FORGIVE but I must not FORGET. As the Malay saying goes, "Buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali". After all, all I need is to have a kind heart and positive mind. Amin.

4 comments:

ngengngok said...

hahaha. lek beb

kYnnHs said...

a good move..stay strong..gambate ne

Cikuniz said...

good "reboot" from my dear friend:)

afiqms said...

thanks to all~ still tinkering with the settings to get good result~ h ehehe~